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[mistressery]

[hell, she'd tell it differently from the version of herself that was there.]

Borusa was our tutor. I used to pray he'd regenerate into someone interesting, and finally he did. He became Lord President and went bananas.

So there was me, and Susan, and an insufferable amount of Doctors, [four out of a possible five, but if you ask missy, sometimes one is too many] but we didn't have to do anything in the end. He sorted himself out. He insisted on immortality, and so began life eternal as some sentient stone on the side of Rassilon's tomb.

[retrorsum]

Now who's withholding details?

( as much as she is part-time lord and has regenerated she doesn't have the same experiences and knowledge that missy does have. life eternal as a stone? do help her, missy )

[mistressery]

[well! maybe river should be grateful that missy treats her like one of the cool kids? nicer than talking to her like a clueless puppy.]

I didn't leave much out!

Borusa believed that Rassilon's stuff would imbue him with power. Instead, it was booby trapped. As an archaeologist, you should appreciate that. He got what he wanted in the worst way.

[retrorsum]

( not clueless. younger, perhaps. not raised on gallifrey. doesn't stop her keeping up on other things )

A fitting end. Not quite as interesting as a good ending could have been.

[mistressery]

Everyone's a critic.

[that's just what happened! no sense complaining about it. which one of them needs entertainment here anyway?]

[retrorsum]

( quid pro quo )

It's one more reason to stay away.

( she has a very long list of reasons why she'd not intentionally visit gallifrey, particularly whilst rassilon still lived. most of them involve the fact that river enjoys being alive )

Did you ever go back?

[mistressery]

Why would I? I'm not welcome. Besides, it isn't what it used to be.

[they can go there but they can't go then. besides, she's not sure the time lords want her alive. they'd much prefer her dead, only to be resurrected in case of emergencies. that's her: the break-glass option. always was and always would be. and oh, she's still bitter about it.]

My home isn't a place. You know that, don't you? You suspect.

[theta is home.]

[retrorsum]

( missy, you're talking to the person that has never had a home.

no, amy's childhood home-- that had been home even if she'd never truly been able to enjoy it. but she'd always felt safe there.

but, like missy, there was somewhere else that she felt safe, someone else that felt like home to her )

I do.
It's there, somewhere.

[mistressery]

[never had a home? sorry, but she'd treat that assertion with the scepticism it deserves. river's home on darillium still exists whole and unchanged on the TARDIS, because a certain sentimental idiot couldn't bear to leave it behind.

nevertheless: yes, it's there somewhere. koschei is there somewhere too. sometimes recognition and understanding crackles between the renegades like lightning. it's frankly terrifying. this is so sad, alexa play 'golden slumbers/carry that weight'.]

I wasn't fishing for reassurance on that one, honey, but that's good of you to say.
We're just a pair of merry murderesses, aren't we?

[retrorsum]

I was thinking of something else.

[mistressery]

Thinking? Careful, you'll strain something.

[retrorsum]

And you'd miss this.

( it may not be the doctor but river knew that missy appreciated someone that could keep up a little )

You're more than that. To him.

[mistressery]

[would she miss it?] Maybe a smidge. [that's about as nice as missy can be without putting on an overperformed theatrical production.]

I've told you before: I don't pretend to understand your thing. You shouldn't try to understand mine. Leave it, all right?

[retrorsum]

I'd never understand, you've had more centuries together than I will. But the Doctor leaves a mark even with the smallest of time. As does everyone he meets.